catch myself catching myself

Thoughts, music, & photography

Sometimes they bitches, and sometimes they hoes 

Sometimes life don’t go the way you want it to go 

Sometimes life kicks your ass 

Sometimes it knocks you down 

Don’t be scared baby you ain’t to far from the ground 

And when you fall, ain’t a long way back to the top 

Keep on comin’ and they runnin’ you down but you butt gets by 

You gotta tell’em don’t you test me cause I’ll keep movin’ on 

Long as the sun keeps shinin’ and I’ll do what I want singin’ yeah

Sometimes, I.D.G.A.F.O.S.

Not a day goes by without something reminding me of this magical place.

Not a day goes by without something reminding me of this magical place.

(via naterproduction)

It seems like people post more pictures/text about food than about anything else on a regular basis. I see people post healthy, ‘clean’ recipes on-line, and on the other end of the spectrum, there are those that post pictures of burgers, plates of buffet food, fried food, and desserts.  Either I just started to notice all the food porn in my news feed, or my current daily status of hunger has made those images more appealing to me than they were before. Food draws my attention more than usual these days, and I find myself craving things I never wanted before I began eating clean in preparation for competing in 2012.  I have not given into any cravings, and have not eaten a single bite of food that hasn’t been in my plan since January. However, I see a strong correlation between how much I want something and how much I can’t have something.  During the summer, for example, I had six months off between college and pharmacy school, and I was more relaxed then than I ever have been/will be at any point in my life. I had many opportunities to socialize and drink, even after my contest prep, but I just did not find drinking and staying out late appealing. I was so happy with going to bed sober at a decent hour and having what some would consider a ‘dull’ summer. I enjoyed waking up at a decent time and feeling refreshed everyday more than I thought I would enjoy drinking. Then during my first quarter of pharmacy school, I suddenly felt like I could ‘really use a beer’ one day, out of the blue, during a time in my life when I didn’t have all the time in the world to go out for drinks and just chill. About 7 weeks left of my diet and I’m already daydreaming about new restaurants to check out after. 

It seems like people post more pictures/text about food than about anything else on a regular basis.

I see people post healthy, ‘clean’ recipes on-line, and on the other end of the spectrum, there are those that post pictures of burgers, plates of buffet food, fried food, and desserts. 

Either I just started to notice all the food porn in my news feed, or my current daily status of hunger has made those images more appealing to me than they were before. Food draws my attention more than usual these days, and I find myself craving things I never wanted before I began eating clean in preparation for competing in 2012. 

I have not given into any cravings, and have not eaten a single bite of food that hasn’t been in my plan since January. However, I see a strong correlation between how much I want something and how much I can’t have something. 

During the summer, for example, I had six months off between college and pharmacy school, and I was more relaxed then than I ever have been/will be at any point in my life. I had many opportunities to socialize and drink, even after my contest prep, but I just did not find drinking and staying out late appealing. I was so happy with going to bed sober at a decent hour and having what some would consider a ‘dull’ summer. I enjoyed waking up at a decent time and feeling refreshed everyday more than I thought I would enjoy drinking.

Then during my first quarter of pharmacy school, I suddenly felt like I could ‘really use a beer’ one day, out of the blue, during a time in my life when I didn’t have all the time in the world to go out for drinks and just chill.

About 7 weeks left of my diet and I’m already daydreaming about new restaurants to check out after. 

Tonight
We are young
So let’s set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
than the sun

Famous Last Words: releasing a new video tonight at 8 PM! 

Hardcore/Screamo from Petoskey, MI.

New EP: “Pick Your Poison” released 1/17/2012 

p.s. If anyone knows of any new, good music, suggestions would be SO appreciated :) xoxo

This weekend, I discovered a new band to rock out to, and a new athlete to look up to.

For the past few months, I’ve been in a music funk. I’m now desperate for anything new that is decent to listen to. Bonus points if it gets my blood pumping at the gym, but I’ll settle for mellow study music if that’s available.

I’m currently doing my own prep for a figure show I hope to compete in this April. It all depends on my exam schedule for next quarter, which I don’t know for sure yet. I normally check out what the top figure athletes are up to, but I stumbled upon Dana Linn Bailey (aka DLB)’s web site this weekend. 

DLB competes in Physique, a new division for women, and 2012 will be a breakout year for this division. I can’t wait to see how she does in her upcoming show in 4 weeks, her Pro debut! 

Not only do her workouts look intense as hell, but she also looks like she has fun at the gym. Her abs and overall physique caught my eye immediately, and her sense of comfort with herself had me hooked. 

Also, she does not have typical workout background music for her videos. She plays music that I would very likely have been found listening to while fighting for my survival in a mosh pit not too long ago. 

Immediately after watching a few of her videos, I updated my mp3 player with Killswitch Engage, A Day to Remember, Bring me the Horizon, Blessthefall, (old music) and Famous Last Words (new music). Then I took off for the gym, excited about working out to music I haven’t heard in a long time, since I’ve been in a rut and listening to Skrillex and The Hold Up on repeat since…. last summer. 

Tell me where you are

And I’ll find you

Tell me what it takes to see this through

Tell me what it takes to get to you

And I’ll be there waiting